When Drake said “I’m really too young to be feeling this old” in ‘Over’, I felt that.
Have you ever experienced those times when you feel old but then you come to your senses and realise you’re not as old as you think you are? Yeah, I’m talking about those days when you feel drowned in responsibility that you’ve forgotten what fun feels like. For the last couple of days of days (turned weeks now) I’ve been feeling like this. I feel like adulting has gotten to me now that some things in my life are pushing me to become a more responsible person.
I don’t think the added self-imposed pressure of having my stuff together helps neither. At times I just want to cut off the whole world and live the life of a monk in Thailand. But, there are so many things I want to do and places to travel. I’m only 22. I know I’m young and that there’s so much more to see in life. They say your 20’s is meant to be the best times of your life and honestly, I just want to experience that. I want more spontaneous outings, travel adventures and dinner dates like I see my peers enjoying. I think I need to stop taking things so seriously and live a little. Or live a lot, should I say. Not everything is black and white and I ought to make the most of what I have right now. I’d love to find people that get my circumstances and still want to do stuff with me. I recognise that I need to stop isolating myself when I’m going through stuff… that’s something I work on.
Being level-headed is important but life requires balance and enjoyment is part of that equation. I just need to do more of what excites me and stop using the smallest things like a “lack of money” stop me. There’s ways around everything… I guess the take away point is, you only live one (as Drake would also say) so I should do what I want to do and stop letting excuses stop me. 🤷🏾♀️