Why I stopped doing what I love to do

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Isn’t it funny how early on in life we know what it is we are called to do? Whether it is that we that have a full revelation of what our life’s purpose is or we have interests and ideas that we can pursue for the future.

As we grow older, we try to keep our dreams alive, hoping that one day we will achieve them but then life happens and our dreams get shut down. Situations arise, the pressures of life kick in, negativity and failed attempts discourage us from pursuing our passions. Living in a fast-paced society where the ‘need’ to have your life together takes precedence over the importance of building character, setting firm foundations and making sure your values are in check, doesn’t help neither…

(Read my post/borderline rant ‘you don’t have to have your stuff together by your late teens/early 20’s’)

So, what stopped me from doing what I love?

It’s crazy because I’ve had this blog post in my drafts for over a month. I’ve been wondering how to word what I want to say and figure out how to execute it for so long that I’ve put it off.

I love writing. But, for a while I struggled with comparison. I let myself think that my writing wasn’t as good as other writers was. I thought people wouldn’t read my work. I felt unrelatable. I was frightened to open up. I had been blogging on and off for four years and past failures left me feeling discouraged. I regretted stopping and starting because I figured if I were consistent I could’ve have gotten so far by now…

What stopped me from sharing my work was desire for perfection. I was a perfectionist, to the T. Before I could share my writing I would over think everything, wondering if what I wrote made sense or the pictures looked pretty. Since the beginning of the year I’ve been planning to write more but that fear got the better of me. In my mind, everything had to be perfect, otherwise the message was not viable. I made up excuses such as:

  • I need to have a beautiful theme and buy a domain before I post anything
  • I need  x amount of money to buy a professional camera for my photographs
  • I need to have thousands of followers on my social media to share my blog with
  • I need to have everything figured out

I knew having a vision was important but rather than using the resources I had at that time I let these things hinder me writing. In late June/July this year I attended various networking events and weekly church services. Each time I went the speakers would speak about taking opportunities, doing what you love, not giving up and being a person of purpose and value. I thought  “wow, this is really speaking to me because I have been holding back what it was that I loved to do”. After hearing these messages in a short space of time I knew it was confirmation from God to get back to writing. I pulled myself together and committed to start blogging again and created  WordsByTracyLandu (an Instagram account where I share my thoughts, faith and inspiration).

A reminder of why pursuing your purpose is important

Matthew 5:13-16 says:

You are the salt of the earth, but if salt has lost its taste, how shall its saltiness be restored? It is no longer good for anything except to be thrown out and trampled under people’s feet. You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.

As a child of God, walking in your God-given purpose requires obedience and selflessness. By sharing the ‘light’ that is you (your talent) are bringing glory to God whilst sharing Him with others. When you have a talent and refuse to do the things you are called to do you lose your ‘saltiness’ (which reminds me of the parable of the talents – Matthew 25:14-30). As Christans, once you make these the founding reason for using your talents, the excuses you used to make will whittle away and you will undoubtedly walk in your purpose.

(You can also read 1 Peter 4:10-11, Romans 12:6-8, Proverbs 18:16 and Colossians 3:23-25 for more verses about talents/purpose)

Your talent is God’s gift to you. What you do with it is your gift back to God – Leo Buscalgia

“Your blog is YOUR voice.” (some great advice I received from fashion blogger Barbara, at simpleyetsylish which has stuck with me ever since.) It’s the way I express myself and no one has the power to stop me from speaking up. If so, I’m in “people bondage” and fear others opinions. My experiences can truly impact someone who has gone through the same things that I have. My blog is part of who I am. My voice is different to everyone else in the world. Even when it’s difficult and I have to be vulnerable before others, I will share my truth. No one should make you feel inferior for what you do or say… no one should have that kind of control over you.  Your purpose is bigger than you so walk in God’s will for your life. 

Knowing why you do what you do will and making your ‘why’ much stronger, which will always make you come back to it.  The followers, readership and aesthetics can come later. As long as you put God first and  do what you love consistently you will reach those who need to be reached at the right time.

Peace&Love ♥

Tracy Landu

Published by Tracy

Freelance Journalist from London, UK.

4 thoughts on “Why I stopped doing what I love to do

  1. I understand I used to be hsrd on myself about my work as well. I just want to encourage you to keep writting, because your writting is great. But I have a question how did you make your image for this blog post?


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